Snail Trails & Sleep deprivation:
If you ever have worn a black shirt and had a sick kid, then you know about snail trails and lack of sleep! What was I thinking today??? Poor little D is sick, AGAIN! I swear, I have never seen so many colds in one season in this house before! I try so hard to wash hands and keep the house clean. But, we can't live in a damn bubble. So, poor baby woke up Monday night three times, crying and sounding horse. It was such a eerie sound that it kept Jeremy and I up with the worries. But as soon as I would go in and calm him, he was very normal. Took him to the doc Tuesday, all is well....no fluid in the lungs (one of our 3am panics) just a upper respiratory thing. But, man, it's a juicy one! Even with meds, he's snotty all the time. I don't mean to complain, he's the one with the cold. But it's a long day for mommy with a whiny, clingy, sick boy. He did nap, but only if I was holding him. So, I had plenty of time to think.....
Do you ever feel lonely, even when you know you have friends a phone call away? I just couldn't shake this lonely, sad cloud that followed me today. I just felt very isolated....alone. Even though I wasn't....I talked to hubby, my parents, and a good friend. It helped each time, for a little while. But then the feeling of being disconnected returned. I just felt like I was out of place somehow. It was strange.