Struggling

So, I don't want to sound like a complainer. But I have to say, life right now is the hardest it's ever been for me. That sounds dramatic, it's not really that bad. I'm just really struggling right now. Thursday night, I came down with a temperature. I figured I was getting a cold or something else that seems to be going around. I took some Tylenol and kept on doing my thing. Friday, I felt kinda crappy, got the hacking cough that Derick had a few weeks ago. But, I pushed on, tried to get some sleep, but with a newborn and a toddler in the house, it's tough. They never are resting at the same time! Friday night, I woke up at 2am with a terrible fever (102.9) and the shakes. I fed Darla, woke Jeremy for some help, got some meds and climbed back into bed. I was lying there, trying not to freak out about some kind of infection from my C section. I did manage to get a couple of hours of sleep before calling my doctor's office in the morning. Luckily, I got to speak to my OB (he was on call) directly. The good news is, my C section is fine. The bad news is, I have Mastitis or a breast infection. Another new thing for me to learn about! The hardest part is the fever. I hate dealing with the heat and the drain that it takes on me. And I worry that my milk supply will drop too low. I'm pumping and feeding as much as I can. Add to that lack of sleep, heart burn from the antibiotics I'm taking, and continued healing from surgery and, well, I'm struggling! I don't really do sick well, and get pretty mopey when I am. I just feel overwhelmed already. Some good news, I slept better last night and took a good rest this afternoon. I'm hoping with added rest, my state of mind will improve. Here's to a new day tomorrow, and hopefully, a breaking fever.