From Spa Bliss to Head Cold Sickness

The last few days have been a struggle. I re-read my blog about the spa and was so bummed that I lost that Blissful feeling so fast. But the next day, I came down with one of the worst head colds I've had in ages. I am sure it's from lack of sleep. I don't think I slept more than an hour or two at a time Wednesday or Thursday nights, that week. I do know, without good rest, my immune system fails. So, it was no surprise to me to wake up so yucky. The good news is, I am starting to recover. I hope it's all gone soon, so I don't have to go into the hospital with a cold.

Things have been tense around here the last few days. Jeremy worked alot over the weekend, getting one of his teams moved from one building to another. He's phone and IT support, so alot gets done after hours. Sunday was his only day home, and we tried to spend it getting last minute things done for the baby. I had a list of stuff to bring down from the attic. Once it was all down, it filled my landing space on the stairwell!!! Bouncy seats, car seats, infant tub, nursing pillows, toys, bottles.........it's kinda crazy how much stuff goes into caring for an infant. I guess I forgot. I think all three of us kinda freaked out. The anxiety level jumped 50% for Jeremy and I and Derick picked it up like little one's do. We spent all day snapping at each other or in tears. (Well, Derick and I shed the tears) I kept thinking: I'm not sure that I really want to go through the tiny infant thing again. When I first got pregnant, I longed for the tiny baby snuggled up against me. But, now I'm starting to remember the long sleepless nights, the pumping, the feedings, the fear of not knowing how to stop the crying. I am hoping all that will go fast and we'll get into the fun stages quickly....the smiles, the cooing, the more set sleep patterns.

On top of all that stuff to get ready, we thought it would be fun to go look at bunk beds for Derick's room. Which store did we pick? Well, which one would be the busiest and most crazy one? You guessed it, we went to IKEA on a Sunday. What was I thinking???? Needless to say, it was not a good trip. We all came home frustrated and ready for naps.

I do want to say, Monday and today have been much better around here. I know all families go through rough days together. That's life. And, as I continue to feel better, that only helps. The anxiety about adding a little baby to our family continues, but we'll do the best we can once she gets here. I feel very supported by family and friends. As I get the last of things washed and put away, the final waiting games begin.