Wow. So, now that I'm there, I'm not so sure I wanna stay. I feel crazy all over again. The mood swings are huge and so filled with anger. I lash out at my little family and respond inappropriately to things. I wanted to see if I could handle it, since my logical brain understands it. But, my hormones are embarrassing me. I feel Jeremy pulling back and the kids look at me with puzzled faces. I feel frustrated that I can't sleep. I wanna cry alot. I don't mind the hot flashes, and definitely don’t miss my menstrual cycle. I know it's a journey, and I'm going to do my best every moment. I just hope that it's enough.
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Oh honey! I'm sorry to hear you are having a hard time with coming of the meds. Even though you now have a better idea of what is causing the depression, we do what we can to beat it and you are doing everything you can. I admire you for wanting to be more in touch with what is going on, you are in control and strong. Sometimes our bods just need that little extra kick from a pill to get us level minded. I hope you find what makes you balanced. Please know I am thinking of you soooo much and am here if you need to talk...much love xx
Jilly,
You are a wonderful mother. I've seen you with your kids and they ADORE you. Nobody is perfect. Believe me! As women, we are so pressured to fill this mold of the "perfect lady", but that doesn't exist. We all have our days and moments. Just know that we LOVE you because we know you. I am just so proud of you. See you soon!
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